It just hang in the air, without landing...
So flat, so plain, so numb...
I found my self lost in the feeling...
It might be the biggest sin for me, to love 100%.
My mom always tell me, to not love people 100%... But I couldn't.
Maybe this is the punishment cause I didn't follow what my mom has said to me...
These days, my feeling totally become miserable...
People said, world is so small, I totally agree!
Few days a go,
I chat with a girl, and the unexpected thing is, she is my past-lover's sister...
I even don't know her, and she also doesn't know me...
Last only I know she's his sister... :(
Long time already I didn't contact with him, it's about 4 years a go...
Then, I chat with him through BBM, connected by his sister.
It just felt like chatting with a stranger...
Someone who was my best friend, and suddenly felt in love with...
He broke with his ex cause of this matter, yet I didn't know his ex is my friend too...
We were too complicated to be together, and finally I ended this fate with accept the new "love" last time.
The "stranger" feeling....Will it be happen again to me at this time?
Hurt? Passed
Sad? Passed
Miss? Passed
I can't feel anything about love anymore....
Is it good or bad? hahaha....
Suddenly, I really treasured what I have now...
With or without him, I realized it's the same matter...
If I continued to sad and cry everyday, I will be DIE ! hahahaha
If one place remind me of everything,
If one song will remind me of him,
If one stuff can remind me of those memories,
even If I had met someone who totally looks like him,
AND THEN?
I just know that, I should continue my life,
I should continue my precious days,
and I shouldn't REPLACE him with any people...
cause He is He. That people is that people,
same face, same voice
can't indicate my feeling will be the same... :)
