I just don't know

You're not here, and you will never here...

I don't know what is this feeling, and I don't want to know.

I'm tired to cry and I'm tired to be hurt

People asked why I'm not willing to open heart, to be true I also don't know the answer.

I just know that I unable to accept new people in my heart, at least for now.

It's been years, I don't know why sometimes I would recall those memories.

You've changed, but you never admit it.

I don't love you. I lovED the old you.

I can confirm that I have no any feelings toward you already,

but why those words which came out from you a month ago is still affecting my mood so much.

I'm stupid, I know it.

I thought being a normal friend with you was a right decision.

Yes It was a right decision! But just for a few months.

Suddenly, this friendship just made me hate you more and more.

Where are you! Where's the old you!

I don't want talk about past...

Why you had to bring up that old scar again?

Do you know how struggle I was to get up again?

I think, you will never ever know

PS. For someone who might read this post (Mr.Know it all, but actually don't know at all), I don't need your advice. Stop acting like you know me so well. I know what you did behind me, so please stop pretending to be an innocent guy. I won't ever pay my trust on you anymore. You asked me why I don't want to talk to you. Now I hope you understand why (or maybe you still want to stay at your "innocent'' state of mind). Anyway, please allow me give 1 advice for you. Stop playing girl's feeling, just like what you have done to some1. Don't ever challenge me, cause I will prove it to u.

Christmas is around the corner!

Time runs so fast! 2012 is going to end in less than 30 days. 2012 has been an amazing year for me, I have experienced a lot of great things within this year... Of course, there was hard times when I had to face tough... But Thank God, I never be alone... He always by my side, gives me courages and strength. He also gives me family and friends who always support and accompany me... :)

Anyway peeps, Christmas is coming soon!! What's your plan?
This holiday, I can't go back to my country, cause my holiday only at date 25 itself. I was so sad and desperate, How I supposed to spend Christmas and New Year alone in people's country?
Fortunately my best friend, Indri, will come over.We will stay and spend Christmas Eve together :)
I love u so much INDRI!!! <3 hahahaha...

Christmas themes at Kuala Lumpur are damn amazing. Almost every malls at here have their own Christmas theme. There are Elegant Christmas, White Christmas, and even Colourful Christmas. All of them so beautiful! Check this out :D

Luxurious & Elegant Christmas Tree

Doraemon's Christmas Day ^o^

Glorious lights >,<

Christmas Dessert @ Komugi Pavilion 

W o r k i n g !!! (Monday Syndrome)

Blogging blogging blogging... :D I'm back now :)

Anyway, I have started my internship now! Now I work as a trainee at JW Marriott KL in Sales Department. Let me share something about how's my life was started at KL. First time I came here, I felt so lonely. In this very busy city, I stay alone, without any friends :( Since I live in shopping area, for sure there are a lot of ppl hang out around. Whenever I saw couples, families, and ppl who walk with friends, I felt so jealous! I feel so terrible, especially on the day my mom left me here alone ToT 

It's been 1 week since that day. Luckily, I get new friends here. The colleagues are very nice, especially my bosses. They taught me a lot ^^ I feel this job is kinda fun although it was tiring!  I also have a very helpful housemate here. But sometimes, I still have to go alone since they all very busy :( 

However, if I look about this matter in positive side, it's actually good for me also. I believe He wants me to be independent. Stand on my own feet, and try to control my life (especially my expenses -> shopping). Nowadays, I really appreciate money! Now I know how hard people to get money....haissss....

Working life is totally different with uni life! Last time, although I was tired cause of full time classes, I still had energy for online, and going out. Now, sleeping is the most priority for me :) hahahahaha

Okie, I have to back doing my things now. That's all about my current life now...hehehe... See u next time :) Have a nice day peeps ^^d Cheers :D

Sleepy sleepy sleepy ToT

:)

New friend :D

Pretty Colleagues ^^ 

sick of having sicks !!

Sick sick sick, is not only about physically sick, but also HOMESICK! I'm sick of having sicks because of homesick! LOL XDDD These days, suddenly I really miss my home, fams, and my besties... And now, I'm doubting about my visa! I have applied for student visa renewal about 1 month a go, and it hasn't return to me yet :(

Hommie mommie, I just really want to go back!

day by day

Hiii... I'm coming back, it's been long time since my last posting here wasn't it?? hahaha... Mianeeeee, I was ''busy'' with my recent activities, 'WATCHING DVDs'...!! :D

Firstly, I would like to say CONGRATULATION for all Nilai's participants in Monin Cup. You guys have done the good job, Nilai UC should be proud of all of you! It doesn't matter you win or lose, as long as you did it sincerely! :) Honestly, all of you were really cool! Keep it up ^^

However, today was a fun but also sad day for me. It's fun since I went to KL with a new friend, and could spend money less than what I've targeted! hahahaha... Mission completed! :p I have 1/2 succeed in saving my money, at least it's better than usual.

In other way, I should be apart from my sister ToT She's a friend, sis, and senior for me. A lot of things happened between us,we even have experienced angry,sad,happy together... Good luck, Belinda! I would like to say See You again rather than Good Bye! :) Be strong & Never look down... Don't let other people knock you down! Okie? 

See you again, darling! :D

I think the ballad song is the most suitable song for me now... :) 

These videos are the songs those I like currently, please enjoy :D

Requested :D

Just as usual, I always hang out with my friends... hahaha... The only difference is, on this kinda short holiday, finally I could try all the new themed cafes in my hometown... :p 

Here is my updated picts for my holiday pt. I (as requested by someone*) 

*NOTE : I MISS YOU TOO :)

I like this coffee house!

She's my partner for hang out! (as always :P)

Fave Fettuccine 

Cozy!

Fang2's steak 

Other side of BLUE LOTUS 

Cute wallpapered room :D

1st time sing with her?? 

KoenoKoeni :) Vintage Traditional + Western themed restaurant

<3 this vintage car 

PETHOs

Fool faces :P

Gonna miss you all ^^

I'm the shortest :(

Hope someday we could gather like this again...

Anyway,1 people was missing on this gathering... =.=''

Finally, I dyed my hair! hahahaa

Oh My Goodness!

It's the time for study (again)! I'm wondering why exam really exists...haissss...
Honestly, I really don't like to study...lol...! It gives me stress and pressure! :p
Well, people said it is good for people to study. Besides it's used for gaining our knowledges, study also help us to practice our brain...haiisss...
But how I'm going to study in holiday mood? Holiday is coming soon... I really wait for it since long time...
I want to release all my stress during this holiday...

List to do during my holiday :
- Trip with friends / fams
- Try all new cafes
- Hang out all day long with my friends
- Watching new korean and taiwan dramas
- Sleeping for long time
- Reunion with my old school friends
- Swimming!!! really miss it ToT
- Colour my hair

Anything is missing? Let me think back after exam... fufufufu...

study!!!!!!!!

We had thought we could study together, at the end.... "ehm"

Wish to dye my hair ToT

holiday mood =.=''

special bday celebration ever...

Hahahaha...the special part of this celebration is MOODY...

Why so difficult to celebrate it? ToT Many barriers, and difficulties to set everything...haisss...

But at least, it's done... =.='' although everything is seems be forced... fiuuhhh...

little 'last minute' surprise from the restaurant's staffs

and

Damn in love with this! ><''

BBQ Plaza <3

Unforgettable mates ever!